Sunday, April 10, 2011

why do we like to hurt so much?

oh dear. i'm supposed to be editing my english essay now but i just feel sooooooo distracted. damn. and arsenal won :) its quite sad that i'm actually happy about that considering the fact that we are clear favourites to beat them. but with arsenal's current form... well i'm just glad they didnt lose 4-0. well a win is a win eh?

and i just find this so ironic:

sec 1: oh my god why aren't there any girls?
sec 2: i seriously wish i wasnt in an all boys school...
sec 3: yay one more year and there'll be girls!
sec 4: i don't want go jc...

and this is sooooo freaking true. i DONT WANT TO GO JC. i am mortally afraid of graduating out of ri. ri is like so freaking protected. and anything outside seems really scary. and from the accounts of seniors... well jc seems like a really scary place. damn. and slowly from sec 1 - sec 4 you realise that girls are like SUPER low on your priority list. and you realise that you've been staring at your world from upside down for the past 3 years. damn that took me a while.

oh dear. and then there's the girls. after all that bullshit about hating an all boy's school, i finally realise how good it is. we can do SO MUCH shit and get away with it. i swear we're going to miss this. and then the girls. somehow they just seem so prim and proper. and its really scary. like all guys humour is essentially frat boy humour(no pun (?) intended) but really no matter what school, boys are boys. our humour is far from sophisticated. i mean, that's what she said? yeah, yeah. but it still works wonders. while the girls are out there with their poems and drawings and abstract stuff that i would have probably admired had it been from a guy. but from a girl? its automatically just another piece of boring stuff. i'm just sexist in that way. horrible, yeah. and totally weird too. idk. its like for a girl these emotions come so easily for them till its so commonplace and not of any great importance (i mean, seriously? everyday?). but for a guy its different. i mean, how often do we experience such emotions? even if we want to recreate also cannot. its just different in that way.

Posted by Chiaroscuro at 7:45 AM